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I feel horrible today.

Today was the first time I've slept again after waking up in a long time...no energy. I don't feel like eating much, though I will have to, to stop mum from worrying. She already suspects something, but thankfully she has no idea what.

I'm feeling my emotions more intensely. I'm deeply worried about hurting those that I care for, and I keep on remembering the times when I've hurt others, both in the distant past... and in the recent past. I've been close to tears a lot in the last few days, and I'm in tears as I write this. I'll never forgive myself if I hurt anyone again...I just hope God and those I have hurt will forgive me before its too late...